im so dumb for talking too harsh to him yk? sometimes i js get so fed up.

so i js let him have his space, light?

but i an waiting for so long you know?

i want us to be okay.

light, how? when all i think is us being okay

its js that he have trouble in showing it.

i know i am. but he loves me.

he doesnt want to make me leave u know? he is suffering too.

i dont want to, iris. i love him so much i dont want to hurt him

iris, i have a trouble understanding my avoidant bf when we have fights.

i am close to crying y’all

that is whatbhe reposted

y’all want to know what he reposted?

:( i love him so much. but i saw his repost.

light, i did. always.

he also has trouble understanding me and me too i am having a hard time understanding him.

but i should understand him too right?

it is not so easy when he is my first bf.

i love him, light.

all i communicate was my need and i fucking need to make him understand when i dont understand him either

i regret saying my needs because he shuts down.

i always blame myself over everything.

but do u guys think it will be better?

and being with him stress me tf out. it is so draining but i am willing to love him.

u know i have anxious attachment

i feel like the man.

wtf man, i cant even sleep. how can he let his girl like this.

he said last night (a day after our argument) that i should wait if i want it fixed

but im so so so tired blue.

L, he doesnt and thats the problem. i want assurance

wdym blue?

its exhausting.

i did, blue. he took it the wrong way. he always thinks im arguing

i have a lot to say

like wtf is okay?

but blue, he also did changed a lot. being avoidant is something like permanent for him.

why cant he? if he always says he love me

i know. but i want it to be him.

its tiring u know? having to get use to his distance.

yes. he is avoidant.