any autistic peeps here

i wish i was a normal basic teenage girl, i wish i had friends, there are so many wishes, yet i dont know what to do with it.

i wish i could roughhouse an play like a real boy but my face when im happy or excited is too feminen, i wish i could go outside without thinking of every step i takke or breath i breath.

noone really knows whats there.

im not a christian, but if god is real i will be sent to hell. im terrfieid

i think that alot

i think about death daily, i dont know why, im scared of death, but whar really is there after it, i dont want to die, but i think about it daily, i dont know whats wrong with me