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why can't I just trust people

I dont want them to think they have to stay to keep me happy

I need to calm down

sometimes I think I should just stay away from other people because I'm never enough

I thought we were similar but I think my anxiety is the one thing I have that they just dont

I think I'm going to lose what I have because I just need constant validation, and that can be so exhausting for the other person

And they're all plausible enough for me to believe them

It's so bad, I make all these awful scenarios in my head, ways I could be being tricked or manipulated

I just want to be close with someone without fearing being abandoned every day

I feel crazy sometimes

Oh purple is so relatable

that's nice blue

Well, as long as you're ready to do it when things feel right I suppose

That's fair

You should just go for it blue, no sense in delaying it and wondering what could have been

Well someone has to make a move blue

Oh coral

is there an issue? can you just ask them out?

That's nice

I fear I may actually be delusional

So much of my life has been stress over emotions and other peoples emotions

Emotions are absolutely terrifying