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why can't I just trust people

I dont want them to think they have to stay to keep me happy

I need to calm down

sometimes I think I should just stay away from other people because I'm never enough

I thought we were similar but I think my anxiety is the one thing I have that they just dont

I think I'm going to lose what I have because I just need constant validation, and that can be so exhausting for the other person

And they're all plausible enough for me to believe them

It's so bad, I make all these awful scenarios in my head, ways I could be being tricked or manipulated

I just want to be close with someone without fearing being abandoned every day