Well actually my dad helped me because Im pathetic

I shaved my hair with dog clippers 💀

Well I actuallt have like 3/4 of an inch of hair

I dont have any hair bc I buzzed it yesterday lmao

Shes just as obsessed with me as I am with her :3

It was the most euphoric experience when we started dating

We’re like the same person but Im a little eviller (in a silly way) even my sister agreed on that

I still cant believe she likes me

Im 14 shes my first gf

I actually vented about my crush on her here before 💀

We’ve been dating for almost 2 months shes my first gf and we were best friends before

Shes like my safe person i can talk abt anything with her

maybe ill ask my gf to test out pronouns and stuff

Bc I wouldnt tell them what I was feeling it was too scary

Its especially hard for me to tell my parents things I didnt get into therapy until my issues got so bad I started breaking down crying and having a panic attack every time I had a big assignment

Luckily all my friends and family are really supportive but even if I do figure out if Im rlly a trans man its just an issue for me to tell ppl things bc of my anxiety disorder

Yeah

Wdym by help

I still cant believe I have a gf lol

She said she’d love me no matter my gender I love her sm

Ive already told my girlfriend about my questioning though

I want to know its not just an overthinking phase

Im going to think about this a lot because I dont want to tell anyone until these thoughts have persisted for a while

It is terrifying

Because with an anxiety disorder I overthink a LOT

I hope Im not just overthinking it and Im actually just a girl with body issues though

I have trouble understanding my feelings sometimes which is why Im questioning my gender so much

then*

I never thought I was anxious before getting diagnosed and them I realized how anxious I actually was lmao

I thought I was autistic but instead I was diagnosed with gad

I dont think theyve started working yet

I just started meds for it recently

I have gad so Im especially scared of everything lol

But I want the end results

I dont want to have to come out or transition its all too scary

I think I want to be a guy I just dont want to be trans :(

I dont want to be trans :(

Im starting to think that my attachment to being a girl was only due to comfort because thats all Ive known my whole life

rrghhhhh

This is scary