but i have 4 new friends to help me adjust and theyve grown up in big cities - nathan

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mb im getting mixed up in the name - Light

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thats good nathan - Light

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its all good light dw - nathan

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the tiredness from flying is so real - nathan

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Im going to think about this a lot because I dont want to tell anyone until these thoughts have persisted for a while

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i couldnt sleep at all because there was a damn baby on BOTH flights - nathan

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I want to know its not just an overthinking phase

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that makes sense - mello

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that sucks nathan hope you get some sleep now - Light

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i was in the air for 21 hours and in total, my travel was over 27 hours - nathan

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Ive already told my girlfriend about my questioning though

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i had a layover in london for 6 hours - nathan

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She said she’d love me no matter my gender I love her sm

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well maybe she could help you cyan - Light

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and the time change is fucking with me - nathan

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I still cant believe I have a gf lol

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because wdym its not 1:31am rn - nathan

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Wdym by help

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its 7:31pm - nathan

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well like support you and stuff - Light

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but i took my meds so whenever i can sleep i will - nathan

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i mean she cant think in your place but it can be reassuring to have a supportive person - Light

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Yeah

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Luckily all my friends and family are really supportive but even if I do figure out if Im rlly a trans man its just an issue for me to tell ppl things bc of my anxiety disorder

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idk why people be dressing aesthetic at the airports i looked like i just rolled through the desert - nathan

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Its especially hard for me to tell my parents things I didnt get into therapy until my issues got so bad I started breaking down crying and having a panic attack every time I had a big assignment

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Bc I wouldnt tell them what I was feeling it was too scary

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i feel paronoid alot - mello

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not about grades or anyhting but i get the fear that anytime i go to sleep someone is watching me from the window so ikeep my door open at night and i leave a lantern on - mello

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at least i know how to manage how i feel otherwise id have a hell of a harder time adjusting - nathan

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maybe ill ask my gf to test out pronouns and stuff

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that sounds like a good idea - mello

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Shes like my safe person i can talk abt anything with her

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theres a huge thunderstorm outside its fucking crazy out there - Light

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im glad you have her - mello

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i hate storms - mello

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i used to not mind them but now they scare me - mello

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