how could i sh without getting caught

idk how people even find drugs

i lack any sort of power over anything

i need to have control over something

can't get anything

i'm stuck at home

i can't do any of this stuff

i have to have some sort of feeling of control over my own life

i can't get anything myself

how can i sh easily

my parents won't let me control what's on the tv

can't watch stuff

surely there's something in this world that can make me feel something

i wish i knew someone who liked me

i have nothing to look forward to

i don't feel much motivation anymore

idk what to do anymore

at least that's better than just myself at home with strict parents

i'm gonna die alone

nobody ever truly felt close to me

and even then

nobody has in years

i can't be liked

gotta be lonely for another 3 years and then stay that way because of my bad social anxiety

can't escape this dumb homeschool idea

i'm trapped at home basically

no matter how much i try

idk what to do anymore

i haven't had friends in years

who is this green you're talking to? you're green on my end

but everybody always hates me :(

i wish i could be liked

i'm so lonely

nobody likes me