telling all the blue birds the bill and coo birds - ado

i sit for hours - ado

you cna ask the flowers - ado

pretty little baby imhoping that u do - ado

and try to lvoe me - ado

youll be thinking of me - ado

you say that maybe - ado

pretty little baby - ado

thought i'd never be her, quite the job you've done on me sir - ado

im in a reckless fever lovestruck girl i'd tease her - ado

27 days alone means 20 million days to cope without you - ado

the countdown begins in tokyo - ado

the skyscraper's causing vertigo - ado

i should probably stop listening to music about being barely alive its definitely fueling my anorexia. - ado

always been barely alive - ado

you've always been barely alive - ado

cause you're barely alive - ado

the metal rods you put in your fucking jaw to keep you from GRINDING YOUR TEETH EVERY NIGHT - ado

i can hear you say " JENNY YOURE BARELY ALIVE" - ado

and the coast that you've seen though you're watching them weekly - ado

and the greatest escape that you ever did make with your arms by your side left it up to fate - ado

cause you've always been barely alive, cause you're barely alive - ado

something to mute, change, or just distract you, something to put inside you to give you the illusion of life - ado

you're desperate in finding something else to please you you've been searching your whole life - ado

cause you're barely alive - ado

this time you'll listen to the movement of your body how it keeps on despite you and it frightens you - ado

and its all the subtle change in landscape and business reminds you of your limited time - ado

and its all the mornings we missed for sleep as the sun glides over our apartment - ado

and its all the treasures that shine in the street as we drive right over them - ado

and then my therapy sessions get me overstimulated so i just end up lying and acting like everything is ok - ado

like it seems like my therapist only calls me when i find everything annoying - ado

i guess i do need professional help but i hate therapy - ado

i have but its not like i can really get into that. - ado

but im just constantly looking at thinspo - ado

and i should probably get off edtwt if i wanna get better - ado

i wanna get to bmi 15 i know its severely unhealthy but its the only thing i can think of anymore - ado

since i usually use the tag henry instead of ado - ado

a lot of you guys might already know about my anorexia - ado

i hate my body i look so fat - ado

i cant even go swimming in a normal swim suit because it pains me to look at my body - ado