how do i switch if i don't know what to do

tomorrow and today is all the same, i sleep, watch some videos, go back to sleep

morally speaking

i can't really accept it because i feel like i don't have a future, and if i don't have a future, i'm not human

and has friends who will be there for them and not just dip

has a social circle

i think it's someone who actually has like a life outside their house

i don't feel like i deserve to live or love or to feel any type of emotion

how do i start seeing myself as a person?

oh i thought it was a text chat type of thing