and if i do that i get panic attacks that r so bad i feel like im dying

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like i hate panic attacks so baddd

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yes me too cyan

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🐸 that i was horrible. of course, i wasnt "horrible" in the ugly sense, but everything inside me was a terrible thing

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like i think im as bad as a pedophile

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But nobody gaf if i bedrot and doomscrool because it wont bother them

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🐸 a shitty stain that should be erased. abused. whatever. you know?

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🐸 i mean, what other use i could have had?

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See the retard girl walking in the schoolyard. In the same dress from fourth grade. See the retard girl, cross-eyed in the schoolyard. Looking for the friend she made.

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even tho ive never harned anyone

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harmed

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yes same exactly

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if i couldnt have friends. if i couldnt participate int he comunity in a constructive way. 🐸

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plus im becoming mad weird now

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🐸 no one hated me enough to mistreat me but no one liked me enough to be friends

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As shines the moon among the lesser fires. She is sucking dick out in the yard. Well, she walks funny. Kind of like a pig? God, I hate that retard girl.

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🐸 i was weird but not weird enough to fit in certain cliches. i was normal but not normal enough to be happy.

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🐸 anyways what im trying to say is

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bc i started watching those traumatizing horror movies

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🐸 in the end i kinda realized i wasnt.... all that bad. i mean, not the moster i viewed myself to be

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🐸 i tried to stop the line of obsessive thoughts over all that i hated about myself

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like idk its not like horror movies its lowkey acted fetish content for horrible people

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🐸 i tried to see myself in a more neutral way

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and i imagine im those poor girls in those movies

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Hey, the retard girls all walk funny. She don't think like the others do. See the retard girl squirming in the mud. Throw her in the trash can. See what she does.

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🐸 i tried to move on from all the nasty shit i had done online

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🐸 i just .... tried to move on. it was hard but it kinda worked

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+i hate watching it bc im sensitive so its even better bc i also traumatize myself sort of

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I relate to this song so much idk

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and after watching so many i lowkey got into it and i feel bad

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like not into it sexually idk how to explain it

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🐸no i get it

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Am I visible perchance?

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🐸 sadly the solution is very simple

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🐸 eys you are yellow

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yippie!

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like sometimes i pray god for that stuff to happen to me just bc i feel bad abt myself and i think it'd make me feel better

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hi just wanted to say Jesus loves u all and he wants the best for us

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🐸 you just... have to stop watching those movies. and you have to move on from the fact you enjoyed them. and you have to stop wishing harm upon yourself.

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🐸 its the only way

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