i'm tired of passing out every time i shower, im tired so so tired of getting tired from just sitting up

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i don't deserve anyone in my life. i wis they'd realize that they're so much better off without me

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i'm driving myself up a wall.

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i hate this i hate this so much, i put myself in this damn position and it still hurts

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i hope my bradycardia will kill me so bad. got, i just want everyone to stop for a minute.

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i think about you all the TIME. and i know for a fact-- this isnt speculation, this isn't self-deprication-- but I KNOW you don't think about me at all.

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i hate senses. i hate it so much oh my god i hate my own body SO SO SO MUCH

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years, bro. we had years and I risked everything to come back and you got my hopes up.

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how could you do this?? (I did it to myself)

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if i were just light. if i were just thinner. if i were just GONE

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I NEED TO DIE, I NEED TO BE FREE

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(I'm the source of my own problems)

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(It has been me and it has always been me and I hate that)

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im back - gerf

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hai gerf

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oh god, i hate me bro. that's so dumb bro

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or i need to be as close to death as possible. as thin as possible. i need to be 60 lbs. i need all my organs to fail. i need to die

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who is gerf

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hey gerf

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idk the red dude

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i know none of this will matter in the long run

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im so superfluous. im a mistake of a human brain

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u matter in the long run bro - gerf

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would anyone like to share some struggles with each other

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i can't even starve myself right.

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sure purple

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hai yellow

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and then when i want to eat i VOMIT. WHY AM I SO SICK

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how have you felt recently

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WHY WHY WHY DO I HAVE TO DO THIS.

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not very well but it is what it is

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I CRY, EVERY NIGHT, BECAUSE IM NOT DEAD

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WHY DO I GO ON

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obviously if we're both here

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you could say same here

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specifics?

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i just want to lose weight so so bad.

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maybe its responsibilities piling up?

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that and my boyfriend are all keeping me alive. and i think he hates me.

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I can share: I mentioned this before but my aunt has cancer, Im fat, I constantly sad for no reason, I keep having ptsd responses and i have no friends

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