thats coool

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every time he doesn't want to talk to me i know he's just regretting being with someone as clingy and disgusting as me. i dont even do enough for him

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woa

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recently ive been enjoying looking at bees flying around flowers

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slow connection

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When i walk home from school i take some time to appreciate the beees

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That's nice

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It's the little things you know?

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where are tou from green?

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yeah the little things

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Algeria

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woaw

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i never even got that thin before my heart rate got dangerously low. im convinced if they keep interveening i will never ge tback to my original weight

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yeah

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wat you studying in college?

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applicable science

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sounds fun

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I wanna get into maths one day

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yeah, I can't do anything with the degree though

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i can't even shower without passing out anymore, even when im sitting down. every movement is so strenuous

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im scared i got no plan for da future but thats fine

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most jobs with that requirement probably won't accept me in

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waaaaaaa

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why do i have to be fat as an anorexic, why cant i just be what i want to? why do people have to care

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yea

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this reminded me of a thought

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it's so exhausting and i know i'll never be taken seriously

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I think everybody actually works hard in some way

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if you really think sbout it

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they said i looked fine externally. they have no idea the absolute HELL i go thorugh EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

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That makes sense I think

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at some point everyone is working hard to get just a bit higher or survive perhaps

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And we just praise the hard work which results in the most obvious benefit

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feeling my heart slow gradually, more and more. feeling every sluggish agonizing second as my mobiltiy decreases and i slowly lose more and more memory from my malnourished brain

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i can't even remember most of my own childhood anymore

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it's all numbers, how compressed can i be? how much can i lock my skin to my bones

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my mind is a prison that i cannot escape, and i feel ridiculous for it

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the midnight gets cold quick

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it's still kind of warm here

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im so irrational it's so stupid. i wish i could just be bones, or disappear. to never even be known, ever. to be truly free

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