I strongly agree with cyan.

Do not ignore why you came on here. You came on here because you feel something is wrong.

Trust your gut.

Ignoring how you feel is what led to my father dying due to ignoring his health issues and partially, my sister being sexually assaulted.

Do not ignore how you feel

Do not downplay this

It is not all good because you are on here

Yellow, do not let anyone do anything to you that you don't want to do

I am fighting such an extraordinary uphill battle it is insane

how the fuck am I going to a) cope and b) keep the people I love safe