btw what can i call u here cyan?

i dont want to leave u or kate or ss or even you now cyan

fr cyan

i dont want to, but its so overwhelming to live

or if i kms

she is scared of people leaving her, wont i do the same, if i attempt?

yk vin, i feel like am betraying kate

i relate green

anyways hru guys?

frfr cyan

ohh wow thats cool vin

and i closed math lmao

no cyan i mean....... in this time, this year

formatting? wdym?

idk why am so suicidal now

btw what work vin?

nah its fine

oh

but she (my inner self) doesnt want me to burden him

i do trust him cyan, or else why would i tell him all that i go thru

no never

i do trust his word cyan....

its js so confusing

i dont want to be like this, pathetic, yet i dont want to heal

yea idk i js hate it, and hate myself for that

oh

idk what to do tbh

so i js wont

i feel like he is js being nice, but he doesnt want to listen to me

ik, he told so too, but i js cant get the thought out my mind

so i like promised her i wouldnt burden him again (she is my inner self)

i would vent to ss normally, but i js dont want to be a burden to him anymore

frfr cyan

anyways, since ss isnt here, i wanted to vent a bit

yea

i js dont like it when all go silent, idk i feel scared

nah dwdw

oh ok

oh ok lmao cyan

oh hey!