i feel an intense feeling of disgust in the pit of my stomach when anyone shows me affection

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ugh

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I hatw my life so much

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this isnt fair i want to feel like i deserve it but it just makes me feel repulsed

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I feel so awful

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I envy people who get to have everything i want

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why doni feel likr this

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I wish life was easier

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I feel like an awful person so i just want to accept it

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I wish I didnt have to worry about food 24/7

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Im not even super skinny either!! why is it so hard

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nobody in my family understands me

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nor will thwy try

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So its just me

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i hate being isolated

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I feel so lonely

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i want to go out and do things everyone else does

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Nobody even knows Im feeling even a little bit sad, let alone this awful

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I have nobody to talk to

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Im too scared to

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Hello friends

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Its getting worse

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what's getting worse?

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I dont know how long I can keep worrying about what I eat 24/7

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why do you need to worry about it?

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Because otherwise I will get fat

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I suppose, but I'm not sure it needs to be a 24/7 obsession

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i messaved my bf to pick me up 😣

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there are worse things in life than being fat

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There are worse things but at least I can control my weight

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Sure

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There are other bad things that I cant control but I should be able to control this one simple thing

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i always get too talkative and embarrass myself

16033 - 

I'm not sure life needs to be obsessed over

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But its so hard when everyone is always offering me food or complaining about my portion sizes

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I get it, Blue. You want to connect with people so you ramble

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Why dont they understand

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tell people to worry about their own plate

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I dont need a ton of food

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exactly, and i go between rambling and completely disconnecting and not saying anything

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