i dnot want to guilt trip him here

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like

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i need to lose weight (about 7kg) but he wont let me

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so i have to leave hi,

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but hes the only person in my life who actually likes me

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so i cant leave him

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I wish he would go to prison for his abuse

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so ill probably have to lie

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i just want to be skinny is it so bad

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im healthy weight now he doesnt have to be worried but he still is

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im gonna miss him

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cuz he wont be staying

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I feel lonely. I want someone to talk to.. to share the stories i have gone through.. no one is here to here though.

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I have 0 friends.. i have no social life at all.. i am trying so hard to make one but it never seems to work.

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Born in this country feels like hell

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A place where you cant be yourself. You cant express your true selves.. always have to live with a fear inside.

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I am tired!

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I can't deal with this anymore

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I feel like there is no one left..

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just got a septum piercing and it hurts like doodoo

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I am done dealing with all of this. Putting a mask of another persona to survive in this country with no law and or order

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You can't be yourself.. you always have to live with a fear

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I have been trying to build a social life but it never works out.. something always messes me up. Its like its a privilege that i dont have

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not dead.

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I really don't have the privilege of having friendships.. loving someone.. being loved.. and or being accepted.

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they should have killed me when they had the chance

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You know it doesn't hurt when you know you might have a chance.. it hurts very badly when you are aware that you dont have a chance to begin with.

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People say that ending yourself is a low act.. i dont think so.. its a smart move.. not to deal with this shit.. i was never asked whether i wanted to come to this world.. why should i deal with it?

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God, why don't you just kill me in one go.. i am sure that wouldn't hurt as much as going through this "Life" does.

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deep

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better write them down in paper than in a place like this xd

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so you will have something to look back at xd

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I want this to end

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so do i xd

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I cant deal with this anymore.

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who doesnt xd

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