even though like the day before i'd be having suicidal ideation & intrusive thoughts

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Purple, then that is your first problem if you are not being honest with others - West

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I got my autism diagnosis and my ma beat me and keep saying it was a demon or sum shit -Bunny

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so sometimes im like would it be better to be truly alone? - oli

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ik

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Wart, Unity popped out a few mins ago - West

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Not really midday like 3pm but still and it gets really hot

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i guess its just hard to let myself admit it

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*kept* -Bunny

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or is it better to have friends and deal with these weird feelings? -oli

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oh, okay

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Lying to your therapist will keep you in the same spot - West

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bc then i'd have to acknowledge it and i hate acknowledging it

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i would never actually take my life btw but i have felt the feeling that it would be easier - oli

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its something i plan on talking to my therapist about when i do finally make the appointment

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that way they call be like "are you bullshitting or are you actually fine"

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*can be like

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To get past trauma you have to be willing to work at it. set that first appointment - West

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anyways one of my friends is online and as i said theyre a comfort for me so i guess ill get going - oli

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Ok well actually ive had it since 2016 and my dad stole it to keep his weed but i stole it back and washed it

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still feel sad tho lol- oli

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Good luck, Oli. I hope it goes well for you - West

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bye guys-oli

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yknow what im gonna go on my insurance website rn and look for a therapist

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can yall see me rq? -Bunny

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thank you west-oli

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You can stay here or not, whatever you like - WEst

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later guys

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Yes bunny

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I can see you bnnuy

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and thanks for the push west

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ight imma brb i'm thirsty -Bunny

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Bye purple I am proud of you - West

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