my fiance's ex is in my yard trying to watch me through the window again 😐 -meredith

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im not sure i would go through with it

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I’m too chicken to be suicidal so i think of running away

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i know it's all kinds of wrong, but everyone has a breaking point

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Gotcha, I have some DID friends. I am surprised I am not OSDD myself given my own childhood trauma. - West

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i imagine how i would do it

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abusive mom, mom and dad arguing, self harm, being on the internet at a young age, anxiety

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if i go somewhere else i make a new plan to fit my new surroundings

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And then i think of what ppl would say if i were gone

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also honestly my dad is not much better than my mom but i have less trauma caused by him

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Probably something about nice, kind, empty words

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Gotcha Wart, I had my parents argue and had emotionally abusive parents but not physical. Did have a physically abusive brother though - West

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she's been scaling up the tree every night and watching my house with binoculars -meredith

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they would get over it

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Are you moved out, Wart? - West

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I didn't know my own childhood trauma that well, i knew there had been things due to my responses and the evident PTSD but until my parent just completely dropped it all at me i was unaware just how

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Much there infact was - Archive

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oh, i was only physically abused by my mom a few times but rarely

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and she's right on the line between "public property" and "my yard" so she won't be persecuted unless she crosses over it -meredith

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i dont live with my mom anymore, live with my dad and sister

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fucking freak -meredith

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you never know the value of what you have until it's taken away, right? maybe it would be a much needed wake up call for everyone to realize how messed up i was

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im so thankful for my sisters, they probably saved my life

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Meredith, do you have a scary dog? - West

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they made me this way

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Yet even if i am plural i don't think id ever disclose it too anyone - Archive

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i’m going to go back to the house where i lived with my mom for one and a half years soon, and that place holds most of my trauma

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Hi guys -Noah

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People who know you will understand and want to support you and your alters, Archive - West

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hi noah

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Hi noah - West

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Guys do you ever just get sick out of nowhere-Noah

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Its void:)

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Good luck, Wart. You make your own memories there to erase the old - West

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Like I was fine this morning and now I'm like coughing my lungs out

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Ive been handed the term P-DID which within my research could make sense, yet i exist just as a being of sorts yk - Archive

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thank you so much west

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...

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Of course, you're not alone out here and others have been where you stand or in a similar place - West

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that means a lot to me

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