gahh, i just hate feelings. i feel like he likes me but he wont say it and then there are two nice guys who want me but i just love the other guy.

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i know but like we dated for like 2 years and i still have a feeling for him

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not sure why

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a lot of manipulation comes down to making the person being manipulated feel like they weren't "enough" and its really damaging. my best advice would be to take a step back and look at what they did

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i know what they did though and i know it was wrong and i shouldnt want him yet i do. i've tried ignoring him but secretly i want to text him so badly

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and like he randomly blocks me and unblocks me- it's so weird

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if they not only cheated on you but told you to literally end your own life, thats just emotionally abusive.

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sorta like an addiction, where wanting to stop makes you want it more, but any more will only cause more damage

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he also told me to film it and send it to him so he could have a nice laugh.

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i think i'll just keep trying to ignore him

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theres a lot of gross people out there, even if you cant see it head on, for now i feel like just ignoring it is a good start

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alright, thank you

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my own sibling was super manipulative and it took me years to realise what they were doing

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that stuff JUST sucks LOL

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your own sibling? i'm sorry

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i just tore off a huge chunk of skin it hurts so bad fml

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uhhhh you okayy???

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why'd you tear it off?

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im nothing

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feel like nothing, have nothing

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this part was peeling off so i thought i could just like take it off

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im back to square one

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but nope a huge part came with it

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ouch

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i was doing so good, i was doing great, i was getting to be so much better

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HI CHAT

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i'm fucking BACK

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you should get some bandaids or something to prevent infection then? that sounds painful

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i was happier than ever, and now im nothing

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its all my fault

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im just too weak

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im going to i have such bad luck lol

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i was so happy

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i had it all

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i had a reason, i had a smile

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now im the same shitty person i was a month ago

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i hate who i am i fucking hate it

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how so?

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i cant even tell you my name

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inwish i could

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