i kind of wish i had no ties at this point

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You are used to pain so your brain has trained itself to detach to protect from pain - West

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so i didnt have a reason to stay

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whats ur religion

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Who are you asking Yellow? - West

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bingo

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To stay on this earth?

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yes

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Takes one to know one, Wart lol - West

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Dissociation is fucking terrifying ngl. I cant remember sm of my life due to it and even when i try and make sense my brain blocks out the small important details - Archive

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do you also feel that way, west?

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I wanna gues yellow was talking to me

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I did for years, Wart. I had a lot of traumas. 8 / 10 adverse childhood experiences. - West

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honestly archive it doesn’t affect my memory but not knowing who i am is absolutely terrifying

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My religion is theistic satanism

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I guess one of the biggest parts for me is that I don’t want to hurt others or leave when ppl don’t have the correct impression of me

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ya

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Now I went the opposite direction, I actually care way too much now to the point of getting hurt over stupid stuff - West

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Like i feel like leaving now, no one would know what the true me was like and no one cares enough to find out

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i’m sorry west, honestly i’m glad you’re here because some people go down a worse path when that happens

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id make my death the least disruptive i could

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oh i sudduntly dont know much abt this religion

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that’s understandable

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Which is weird because I’m not opening myself up for people to discover anyways

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That as well yeah, false/unknown sense of identity. I understand that, have it as well with my dissociative experiences - Archive

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They say nobody knows us like we do. We wear a mask even around our closest friends, and we say half our lies six inches from the bathroom mirror - West

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So its likely I’ll never get to a place where i feel ppl know me

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ive a final tmrw

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Wart, no worries. I had a lot happen to me it would be unbelievable if I told you - West

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people will never know me

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i dont want them too anymore

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secrets, secrets

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Good luck on your final, I have a matrix final tmr too - West

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Well maybe not know me personally. But at least enough to name hobbies, likes and disklikes, favorite xyz

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probably west, i had one main trauma with a few smaller ones

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ty again blue

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Which no one does

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Ofc yellow - West

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Theres clear evidence of possible plurality within me and ive being doing research since 2021 and no not just tiktok research yet i still dunno - Archive

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Wart, you can open up about them if you want, honestly I could probably relate to any of them lol - West

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