Why did I change colors

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i don't want to hold on anymore, i've held on for 14 fucking years

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you can do it,ik you can

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but i don't want to anymore.

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n

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look

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when you were little

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*Not wanting to isn't a good enough reason

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Find something to want to do

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what did you want to be to grow up?

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then what's enough reason red??

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i wanted to be a doctor.

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my whole life was about helping ppl.

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exactly

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even from the age of 6, i knew that if i didn't help ppl, i didn't have a purpose in life.

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Hii

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you are a beautiful person

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so i tried helping ppl. fucked it up instead and ending myself in a psych ward.

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Is sol here

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im sol.

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After I was depressed I made friends, learned bass, joined a band, started doing murals, etc

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who are you

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SAM

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hi sam.

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look rn isn't really a good time im sorry sam

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U okay sol?

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it doesn't really matter. how r u sam

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Im okay, and yk it does matter, u can tell me

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I AM NOT PROUD OF YOU , YOUR STUPID SLUT

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said u wanted to be a doctor,go out there,volunteer to something,do anything that makes you feel good

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but remember kid,to help other you need to help yourself first

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idk sam water was just on and they left bc they said they couldn't breathe and i think it was bc i was saying some stupid suicidal shit

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that's the point coral. i can't help myself

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AS A HUSBAND AND WIFE TEAM , WE SUCK AND YOUR A LOSER

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but no one else is gonna help me. they can't.

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and dont tell me ur selfish bcs YOU said you love to help ppl

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Hey domt blame yourself sol, water left beachse they probably wanted to take a little break, no beacuse of u

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no. i said i help ppl bc otherwise i don't have a purpose in life.

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thx sam idk

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i mean i try to love ppl. but it's kinda hard when no one loves you yk?

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