is he special to u cyan -playboifarti

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So guilty

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i had a situationship w a boy in february, we stopped talking 4 months, i came back, said sorry, he found sm1, he messed up so many times and shit, and now i am his "bsf" yet he barely texts me, he

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Why would i do that to him

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Because i thought feeling good in that way

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Would make me feel uswful

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Would make me happy

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Its hard i know but its the only thing i have control over -samu

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And it did for a little

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he says he loves me but everytime i need someone he isnt there

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not even being haha silly anymore i can't think about the future or look at myself in the mirror without vomiting and idk what to do - cove

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But in the end i just hurt

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everytime i need help and i say smth that annoys him he stops talking to me

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i hate feeling sick for just existing but nothing seems to help - cove

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or makes it ab him

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Samu the only thing you have control over is sh??

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and i know he does

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math contributes to the reason why ifeel this way

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Me too red

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I'm sorry

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yet idk, ik it will hurt him if i leave him alone

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Im terrible at math

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I'm so fucking sorry I relapsed

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yes im terrible too

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and ik it isnt my responsability, yet i dont like hurting ppl

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It is apart of why i feel like i cant do stuff

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Im not smart

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but oh god i do sometimes

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Cyan its okay :(

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Im not talented

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Yeahh if that makes any sense. I feel like my life isnt mine -samu

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yes my memory is actually bunz

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I dont know what i can do

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Its not okay

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im not talent either!!!!!!!!!!!!

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its hard to just not sh

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I made a promise

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some days i wish I could collapse onto my bed and melt into the mattress like fizzy tablets in water. it hurts. - cove

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i am so fucking useless ppl dont even notice me in a website lmfao

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I can only sing

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