they say what I didn't say so I am upset and people a problem with my presence and I have just the right to be there as they do

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I'm unsure if i feel like myself or an extension of how others perceive me

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It's probably the latter ...

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I also wanted to say that everyone is attacking me in the USA, a lot of people are abusing their power and treating me worse than I deserve

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she was nice to everyone else to the end

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she was really something special

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people like everyone else but when I come around people have the issue to reject and single me out so I hate the people in my life.

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urge*

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Did you lo

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people say go somewhere else but no it doesn't matter. I keep meeting the same people over and over.

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*

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Why are my messages sending themselves =-=

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Did u lose someone, cyan?

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yes and it was my fault

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I am sick of people acting like they know my life more than me because they don't know me and my lfie and it makes me sick they tell me they want to help and they love me.

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people have no right to say they love me because I didn't give them permission.

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life*

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I see... Please don't blame yourself for something like that ;;

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I didn't give them permission because everyone abuses me.

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there is no one else to blame, I was the only one that knew about how she felt

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I could have done something and I chose not to

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I dont know why, but I didnt

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And now i have to live with that

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it makes me sick, and I wish I was dead because I am tired of people saying they want to help and they love me and they abuse me and they deny it to. I am so fed up.

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I don't sometimes I believe I am better off dead.

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it is never going to stop

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i dont know if i deserve to be happy after what i did

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In so so sorry, cyan,, please don't blame yourself bc even if u knew, nobody prepared u for that & idt it's obvious when something is serious in that way

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she made it obvious

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like i said i was the only one that knew

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i knew how serious it was

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i just didnt think itd happen so fast

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i thought i had more time

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but thats not an excuse, i should have been doing more from the start

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i cant believe that someone is dead now because of my inaction, its hard to grasp

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i really could have done something

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i dont know whats wrong with me

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and I can never escape from it

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I'm not sure what to say,, i really hope u can process everything, it sounds so difficult

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to be honest green i dont know if i deserve to process any of it

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