and it's the combination of these things

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that produce what we see as luck and randomness

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and the fact my luck was so poor to lose my dad that day

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i can't understand that

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i can understand how it happened sure

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i just explained how

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but emotionally, i just can't reconcile

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logically i can

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emotionally i cannot

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i understand how it happened, but i can't see why

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same, my dad dies too, i hate how genetics is probably the reason for the misfortune of it

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it's an evil world we live in

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i kept asking myself why

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the world likes to shame people who are different

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and this can be done for anything

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if you keep asking why

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you'll get to an answer

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but then you'll realise

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the 'why' you've been asking

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was actually 'how'

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and not the true why

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what i mean is this

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we can ask why i exist

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well, the answer to that is i'm made of matter

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and why am i made of mattter? well, cause that's the requirement for things to exist

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and why is that?

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wat

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wait

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idek that

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i'm giving a shit example

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but that's also a good question

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anyway

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what i mean is

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how is the reason for something being the way it is

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why is the reason for the root reason being the way it is

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such as

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why is pi 3.1415926...

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and not 656.34343434343766324

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i understand how my dad died

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but if i trace it back far enough

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