life*

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I see... Please don't blame yourself for something like that ;;

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I didn't give them permission because everyone abuses me.

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there is no one else to blame, I was the only one that knew about how she felt

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I could have done something and I chose not to

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I dont know why, but I didnt

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And now i have to live with that

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it makes me sick, and I wish I was dead because I am tired of people saying they want to help and they love me and they abuse me and they deny it to. I am so fed up.

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I don't sometimes I believe I am better off dead.

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it is never going to stop

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i dont know if i deserve to be happy after what i did

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In so so sorry, cyan,, please don't blame yourself bc even if u knew, nobody prepared u for that & idt it's obvious when something is serious in that way

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she made it obvious

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like i said i was the only one that knew

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i knew how serious it was

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i just didnt think itd happen so fast

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i thought i had more time

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but thats not an excuse, i should have been doing more from the start

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i cant believe that someone is dead now because of my inaction, its hard to grasp

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i really could have done something

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i dont know whats wrong with me

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and I can never escape from it

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I'm not sure what to say,, i really hope u can process everything, it sounds so difficult

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to be honest green i dont know if i deserve to process any of it

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i know what i did

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this is just what I'll have to live with

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You deserve to be whole...

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im such a fucking mess man

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i hate myself

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Can IMF change a country's own constitution?

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I should kms

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No job

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No partner

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No friends

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No motivation

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Hello?

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Draining my parents and country dry

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Just milking that fucker with my hands

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Oh yeah, give me all that security

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I do nothing myself

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