I hate thiss

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or am i just imagining and assuming their reactions?

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Small talk either goes really well or I ruin it by saying something awkward

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i cant trust my own thoughts or perceptions anymore

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socializing has become my nightmare

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that's the issue with neurodivergence and hyper self awareness

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hyper self awareness?

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thats when i heard the media go off in the backdrop and i felt intense fear like none other because at the time i interpretated it was God’s wrath on things unmentioned.

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not a specific term

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what does it mean

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just that you understand the situation you find yourself in, but are unable to do anything to fix it

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that sounds accurate

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the problem is all the advice you'll ever get are the things that self awareness tells you

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its just like i never really noticed this problem until i got to college

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means there's no fucking solution from most of that like there are for a lot of people

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what was hs like?

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but then again i havent done much socualizing in highschool

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lonely

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i had a boyfriend in sophomore year but he was awful and my friends were awful so

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ditched them

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after that i just changed

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I didnt talk to people and they didnt talk to me. I had one friend

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i dont know what happened

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i miss my old self

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hs ig is just a bunch of teens forcefully put in a building together, college people expect you to want to be there and therefore try and socialize/interact more

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well its kinda the opposite

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i want to socialize with people, i try to initiate, i want friends

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i try and try but it just

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im 17. i snap a lot of guys. idek why rly im just rly lonely. like a week ago this guy added me and it was the usual oh wdyll how old r u ect.

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just cant find anyone i like to be around genuinely

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I felt like i had encountered the devil, the room was red and he changed my phone to tell me who to choose, told me condescending texts of who i claimed to be vs what was happening

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im scared ill never fond anyone i actually like

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why dont i like being about people but also crave it

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that's a scary thought, for me too

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i hate most people but at the same time i crave that connection

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lately ive been thinking ill die alone

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Yellow that slunds terrifying

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thats exactly right blue

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he says hes 19 and im like oh thats weird hes in college he’ll prob stop snapping me. but he doesnt. he keeps snapping me and flirting with me and now he ask if i wanna hang out and come over

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i just want a single person

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