maybe i just got fucked up on the way lmfao

50104 - 

could just call it neurodivergence, the brain is a finicky thing and any difference pretty much can be described by that

49730 - 

yeah maybe

50104 - 

I am so tired of her trying to play the victim when she was the one who harmed not only me, but my family, my friends, disabled kids, POCs, and my entire marching band

50094 - 

ive always just felt different

50104 - 

we're all different here, you fit in

49730 - 

just could never find anyone who was like me

50104 - 

When i went to the bedroom i had a lot of background fear behind me like i was hokding my breath to something unmentionable

50103 - 

Maybe you feel taht way because you an attention seeker.

49257 - 

havent had proper friends in years, never had a friend who understood me or who i felt comfortable around

50104 - 

why is it so easy for everybody else

50104 - 

have you tried online spaces?

49730 - 

yeah for years

50104 - 

a lot of the time those are the best places to meet likeminded people

49730 - 

but i dont want online friends

50104 - 

i had them

50104 - 

I want real friends

50104 - 

i don't either, but sometimes that's the best you can get

49730 - 

online friends cant fill the endless pit of loneliness

50104 - 

i laid down on the bed and there came a light that came down across the wall but it was like seeping through a crack

50103 - 

makes me life worse tbh

50104 - 

what about mensa maybe? a lot of neurodivergence in those spaces

49730 - 

its like when im socializing i know im being weird, i can see it, but i freeze up and dont know how to act normal

50104 - 

On the bright side I heatd she might be getting kicked off our band trip

50094 - 

a bit selective to get in, but could be a good option

49730 - 

dont know what to say

50104 - 

The light came down like it was going down a pipe and when it reached the end of the mid wall it made the room a dark red

50103 - 

but around my family im never like that, im completely different, im normal

50104 - 

does it help when it's a genuine conversation, not forced smalltalk or something?

49730 - 

why cant i be like around everybody

50104 - 

no its just like everything

50104 - 

I hate my fucking sibling

42805 - 

if its not something im experience on or know a lot about, im a complete idiot

50104 - 

don't say that

49730 - 

im probably better at smalltalk because its predictable

50104 - 

i can fake smalltalk

50104 - 

straight a's an the ability to communicate on here means you're not an idiot

49730 - 

I can't fake small talks

42805 - 

i can fake it too, not well but i can

49730 - 

Fuckkkk

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