it makes me mad

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it sucks, i just want to make my parents proud but it feels like i don't

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im rotting away

50104 - 

Thats not you

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you know that

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im rotting away and losing all my potential because im out of control

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cant control myself

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just a spectator

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who is telling you in your life that you arent

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i am

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i just chase dopamine and dont stop it

50104 - 

You’re responsible

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so who is telling you otherwise

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the only reason i have good grades it cause

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i just have a really good memory i guess

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school is easy, always has been easy

50104 - 

never needs any effort

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but any other part of my life

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my health, my phone, my surroundings

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cant control myself

50104 - 

easy because youre smart

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youre aware

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smart in the unuseful way

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you know what youre doing

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book smart but what use is that

50104 - 

never did me any good

50104 - 

book smart?

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i can ace an exam but put me in a social setting and im an idiot

50104 - 

i used to feel proud

50104 - 

Youre experiencing something from a past

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but about four years ago i thought

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do i have anything to be proud of besides my grades?

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it used to be the basis for my self esteem

50104 - 

you

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now i don’t even care

50104 - 

I know it can be easy to stop talking negatively about yourself but you are setting yourself back the more you talk bad about yourself

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cant

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its not about the grades it is but its about what you want for yourseld

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when i do well, i don’t feel proud anymore

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yourself

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