The moment i think i found someone whose first choice i can be they prove me otherwise

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I wish i can understand people better

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its so difficult to know what is right and wrong to say

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autism is exausting

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ikr, green? they make you do this weird dance with words, guess what they want you to say...

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How do i know what they feel

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they never say it

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like it's a game everybody knows rules to but you

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thats a good analogy

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it helped me a bit to be very upfront about it, green

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i ask them straightforward, "what do you want me to do?" and I say a lot of "I don't mean to upset you, I genuinely want to understand"

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I try

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it helps, sometimes :)

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sometimes yes

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it must be exhausting...

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I'm sorry, green

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hi - oatmeal

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sometimes i feel scared to ask

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Like i seen stupid of inattentive

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i hate myself so much, i'm just disgusting

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Me to cyan <33

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i'm sorry green. you don't deserve that feeling - oats

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Literally why am i like this

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like what?

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it's very frustrating

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autistic and weird and mentally fucked

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hi yellow

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Yk its hard to communicate when saying what bothers you makes them instantly get defensive

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and i end up saying sorry for being hurt

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neurodivergent people are the best, green - oats

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i go into hospitals a lot

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i hear you red. people are shit at listening

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how come green? - oats

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When i try to suicide myself usually

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I'm sorry red... people are so bad at admitting their own guilt

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that sounds difficult to cope with, green. i'm sorry you have to go through that, the world is so unfair - oats

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I wanna feel normal

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I wanna feel liked

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I am always the one caring for others, never being taken care of.

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Also feeling that you matter for someone

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