often i dont even know why

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pretending the water dripping from my eyes are not my tears

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crying in the rain

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but actually the water from the shower

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crying myself to sleep

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yeah

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crying in the rain sounds cool

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haha

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I wanna just leave the earth sometimes

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I feel you

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Great, I cant talk about my problems, when i do the doctors dont help, I dont like diwali but im supposed to sit through it, i dont like mosques but im supposed to live through it, i dont like boring

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oh

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u must pray a lot huh

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I miss my little brother

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he keeps asking me why do i apologize quickly for 'non-issues'but it takes me 'hours of fighting' to admit guilt in actual fights (aka you know when i have my epusodes that happen raerely)

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i apologize for everything because im scared of him

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thats an unhealthy relationship

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we both are toxic to each other and i kind of just live with it

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its better to leave someone like that but idk im not good at relationship advices

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hmm

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he asks me why i do/say the things i do/say but all i can say is i dont know bc i genuinely dont know myself anymore and im scared he will see it as defense aggain

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the word defense already sends me into flight or fight

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yeah you def shouldnt be with him if he makes you feel like that..

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have you tried talking to friends about this?

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i dont have many friends i trust

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i have one good friend but i never really open up to her about my bf hurting me, only about me hurting him

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I see

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you should try opening up to her

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i know it might be hard

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Quit loving up on a girl we fuck those

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hmm?

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I originally came here because i wanted comfort but ended up trying to help others for like multiple horus straight haha

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well i gtg now

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bye guys

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<3

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im sorry for bothering you

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no dw!

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I hope things get better for you

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you didnt bother me

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i hate trying to lose weight with a sister with a naturally fast metabolism

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