Stupid relationship drama here too

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why can't they just be kind to me for once??

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I just dont understand why its so hard for him to communicate what HE wants instead of always flipping it onto me and it being what I want. Ive never had to say yes or no to so many simple things :/

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Hi

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It used to be so perfect. What did i do wrong

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Like last night, i asked if he wanted to play zombies when i got home from work, and the entire closing period we argued about wether or not we would play because he kept saying "do YOU want to play?"

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it would be so nice to not be constantly alone

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i don't remember the last time i touched someone

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i don't remember last time i was embraced

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there is so much love in me, i want to share it with someone, but no one ever wanted me

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i have never been anyone's first choice

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:(

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The moment i think i found someone whose first choice i can be they prove me otherwise

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I wish i can understand people better

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its so difficult to know what is right and wrong to say

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autism is exausting

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ikr, green? they make you do this weird dance with words, guess what they want you to say...

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How do i know what they feel

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they never say it

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like it's a game everybody knows rules to but you

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thats a good analogy

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it helped me a bit to be very upfront about it, green

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i ask them straightforward, "what do you want me to do?" and I say a lot of "I don't mean to upset you, I genuinely want to understand"

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I try

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it helps, sometimes :)

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sometimes yes

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it must be exhausting...

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I'm sorry, green

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hi - oatmeal

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sometimes i feel scared to ask

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Like i seen stupid of inattentive

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i hate myself so much, i'm just disgusting

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Me to cyan <33

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i'm sorry green. you don't deserve that feeling - oats

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Literally why am i like this

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like what?

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it's very frustrating

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autistic and weird and mentally fucked

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hi yellow

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Yk its hard to communicate when saying what bothers you makes them instantly get defensive

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