I almost hooked up with a 16 year-old today

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and that's an understandable exhaustion. a lot of the miscommunication here comes from being told "well just live!"

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Exactly

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but yeah. life sucks major fucking balls. that's the part that you can't fix

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I remember her mentioning a school trip and then thought "oh fuck, she must be a minor"

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I can fix it by not putting myself through it anymore

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What's so bad about dating minors anyway?

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My high school best friend porked girls that were 14, he was 18

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Dated a 15 year-old

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You can mentally fuck up the minor. Depending on how big the age gap

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sure you can, but are there other ways to do it? if so let's talk about them

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You can't tell the difference, especially post-WAP

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But my moral conscience held me back

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you know what the number one most common final thought of people killing themselves is?

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Girl looked like Velma from Scooby Doo, I really wanted to fuck her

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Ive tried. Im just done fighting. People say to fight for your life. But who wants to fight. I just want to rest

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That they wish they hadnt done ut

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Fuck morals, I hate them

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"shit. everything in my life is fixable except for the trigger i just pulled." everyone thinks it. i PROMISE you.

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I can't understand a shit from what y'all r saying

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you do not want your last moments to be numb and cold, then very suddenly regretful and red

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Logically i know it i just dont feel i have the strength to even want to fix it let alone actually do the work to fix it

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and that's okay! you're allowed to be exhausted, you've been fighting Goliath fourteen years in a row as the unchallenged lightweight champ

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Thanks

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but that doesn't mean forfeit NOW. forfeit tomorrow, forfeit next year, just postpone it until you win and smile a bloody smile in death's face again. you are better than him. you have denied him once

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you will again

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I'll try. I have several days before i even order the gun and more before it arrives.

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and in that several days you don't get to duck out the ring. you can take a breather and you can cry as much as needed. but the only way out is through, Blue

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guys

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my fam is so poor

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my mother says

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I'm just worried I'll fight to see another day like today. The pain always comes back. It's never gotten truly better. So am i fighting for a better future, or holding off the inevitable

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she cant afford to send me to schl

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can i ask how old you are ?

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me?

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both honestly

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I'm an adult

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im 14 in grade 9

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she says she cant afford to send me to schl after grade 10

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and next year im planning to get another one

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