yeah, suddenly in my head I'll just be so uneccsarily critical of people even though I'd never tell then these things nor really believe what I'm saying. Or I'll just think of doing horrible things to

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to ppl

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I have the means to commit horrors unspeakable

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sometimes when I'm extremely angry.. but sometimes it can just be completely random!

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lmao scumbags and their retarded defense mechanisms in here. such a boring circus rofl

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Bro hwat

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What do you mean

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man fuck everyone

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I second that cyan

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bye i still can't process Till's death, Ivan died for nothing

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I DONT BLAME TILL

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i just

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i fucking hate luka

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Huh

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or whatever that blonde twink's name is

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?

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I don't even feel like a 'good person' anymore. I try my best to do good things for people and be kind.. but sometimes I can't tell whether I'm doing these things because I genuinely want to or

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just to make me feel better about myself

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ur a genuinely great person

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Im an asshole

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u go out ur way to be kind

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that's what matters

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I yell at my parents for trying to help me

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Not your fault

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I make fun of my dad

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I make my mom cry

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hello

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I don't want to end up violent or overly critical like my mother or enabling, self righteous and draining like my dad.. but sometimes I still catch myself reapering their toxic and abusive habits.

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I'm trying to unlearn and do better but it just makes me hate myself

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The brain can always change, your past doesn't define your future. Its just a lesson

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like I'm not even in control of myself and I'll end up just like them

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Real

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hello everyone

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I am going to leave now but i will be back later because this is the only outlet i have that my mother does not monitor

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how is everyone ?

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Weird , wbu red?

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call me hermes

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Not good red

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Bye

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I feel tingly

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