I am too burnt out usually to socialize all the time irl

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WHAT

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LOL

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idk how i did it in my younger years. Id go to these social dinner events and meet people once a week. i struggle to meet people now!

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Who what

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Me too

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im going to this party thing soon and i hope im not too tired to socialize

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or when people just state obvious things it makes me mad

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socializing is just a chore to me

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my mom was giving me $20 almost every week so i could buy japanese food and talk to other weirdos

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awh :(

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theyre getting divorced and i maybe havent been acting like the most well behaved straight A kid as usual and now think im horrible and im just a lazy kidand i just want them to see my feelings

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Purple have you spoken to them about how you feel?

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or do you know it wouldnt go anywhere?

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they dont care lol my dad left the chat and went to jail for domestic violence and my mom only cares about her boyfriend

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That sounds very toxic. I’m sorry you had to experience all of this :(

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thanks

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sometimes i feel like i dont have a reason to be sad. Other people have valid reasons and im just, sad for no reason. Shit has happened in my life and idk if thats the cause or what but i just feel

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tired

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you are as valid sam

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type of tired sleep cant fix

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emotionally tired, I know

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thank you

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thats so valid though, its hard to care about anything and feel happy when you feel drained

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feeling drained is the worst, some days im apathetic

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me too

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its almost every damn day

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same and then being told your lazy hurts so bad

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your brain is trying to protect itself is all from all the overwhelming thoughts

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of course it would :( you’re not lazy

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i hate being like this but I find being in sadness more comforting than being happy

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or maybe im just brainwashing myself

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i dont know but i think sometimes sadness feels comforting becuase its so much easier to just let yourslef be sad the to put in so much affort and work to feel happy

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I totally get it

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I know. Healing itself takes so much work.

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That’s why not a lot of people want to do it

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i love cats i wish they were real

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sometimes i WANT to heal and sometimes i just want to give up and get worse

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cut more

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and attempt once again to commit

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