What event in my life has sent me down this track?

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Or is it just a consequence of this world taking and taking and not giving back to me, that creates this hole that I seek to fill using power?

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Regardless, I like power

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It feels right

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is anyone here

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yes

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hallo coral

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hello

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question

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uh huh

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why do you think someone strives for power?

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i personally think me being powerful gives me confidence to have dignity

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Hmm

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I hear you

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because i can do whatever i want and fight people off and live however i want

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What do you mean by dignity?

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I agree with that

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but i dont like power because i dont really have much reason to have dignity

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dignity is like

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for me its knowing whats valuable about yourself and not giving it away freely

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i guess

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a type of self respect that comes from withholding a part of yourself from someone

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I feel like aspects of me are restrained because I'm not powerful or free

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maybe thats why you want power

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I want badly for them to see light

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for me i dont want power because i dont feel like i have much reason for it

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then thats the reason

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I understand

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i dont think people are below me to not see much of me if ykwim

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I think I feel that by being powerful I can easily get rid of bad things

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im not above anyone i realise now i do not feel powerful at all and i like it

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I don't look down on anyone else

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I know every human life is of equal value

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Maybe not of equal use

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i feel like with being dignified you feel a right to yourself

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But of equal value sure

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and feel that nobody has a right to you

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but now i dont think im really all that to be thinking im above anyone else

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I think some people aren't worthy to know my secrets

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But other than that I don't mind them knowing me

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