My whole personality was formed off wanting to not look stupid. Needing to not look stupid.

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One dude was so my type, even looks which I usually don't care about it, but he was also seven years older and was ruining his voice by smoking!!!

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Crazy thing was that he was actually a professional singer, and a successful one at that

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I try to prove how smart I am constantly, but always feel like an imposter.

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red, im sorry for what youre going through

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Teachers were dicks to me, my dad was and still is a dick.

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I just want to find an age-appropriate person with a beautiful singing voice, is that too much to ask? </3

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being called stupid for everything you do hurts

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It paralyzes me.

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I am really picky however...you either have to have great singing technique or a beautiful vocal tone

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Stunts my growth. I'm unconfident in the way I feel, in the way I act.

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Ideally both

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I notice how hedonistic and impulsive I can be and start to hate myself. I know that blocking out pain with pleasure is a coping strategy.

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Is this what people call a voice fetish? I'm sorry but I really want to like the way someone sounds

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I try to numb myself, or to escape from having an identity.

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lmao what

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KILLSWITCH

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And when I start asking people to do a singing test for me...

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red, i get you honey

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Sometimes, I don't feel like I have a physical body at all. I seek pleasure, but get nothing out of it.

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I can't feel myself. I can't feel other people.

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I only feel shame and fear, anxiety and the need to conserve.

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GUYS

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red, you gotta talk to a proffesional

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Survivalism wherever I go.

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what is it blue

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Anyways bye everyone, I'm going to console myself by listening to songs by wonderful singers I will never get the chance to romance, let alone meet

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bye coralll

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It's stupid to fall in love over just a voice anyways...

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Bye coral

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Bye cyan!!

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shit bye i guess, goodluck with your daydreaming coral

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Bye red and yellow!

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coral, no bae.

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why ya'll leaving ;(

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im still here

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tho i gtg in a bit

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GUYS

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yayayayay :p

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because its 5 in the morning fro them

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