We in this together then cyan

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Whenever I'm called stupid, I kinda just freeze. I enter a fight or flight state.

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havent met any of them yet coaralll

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red, say anything at this point we will and listen to it even though we are talking to somebody else or just doing nothing

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You will cyan

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On the one hand, I wanna tear the other person apart. On the other, I try to remain calm in order to look less dumb.

33151 - 

Thanks.

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Honestly I've crushed hard on people based on their voices before and it's never ended well

44019 - 

I'm kinda just frozen in life now, going with the flow with no consistent ambition.

33151 - 

I know it's because of my past.

33151 - 

im gonna go to therapy for the first time in some days loll

44526 - 

I have some deep traumas that will probably never go away.

33151 - 

My whole personality was formed off wanting to not look stupid. Needing to not look stupid.

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One dude was so my type, even looks which I usually don't care about it, but he was also seven years older and was ruining his voice by smoking!!!

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Crazy thing was that he was actually a professional singer, and a successful one at that

44019 - 

I try to prove how smart I am constantly, but always feel like an imposter.

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red, im sorry for what youre going through

44526 - 

Teachers were dicks to me, my dad was and still is a dick.

33151 - 

I just want to find an age-appropriate person with a beautiful singing voice, is that too much to ask? </3

44019 - 

being called stupid for everything you do hurts

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It paralyzes me.

33151 - 

I am really picky however...you either have to have great singing technique or a beautiful vocal tone

44019 - 

Stunts my growth. I'm unconfident in the way I feel, in the way I act.

33151 - 

Ideally both

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I notice how hedonistic and impulsive I can be and start to hate myself. I know that blocking out pain with pleasure is a coping strategy.

33151 - 

Is this what people call a voice fetish? I'm sorry but I really want to like the way someone sounds

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I try to numb myself, or to escape from having an identity.

33151 - 

lmao what

44525 - 

KILLSWITCH

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And when I start asking people to do a singing test for me...

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red, i get you honey

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Sometimes, I don't feel like I have a physical body at all. I seek pleasure, but get nothing out of it.

33151 - 

I can't feel myself. I can't feel other people.

33151 - 

I only feel shame and fear, anxiety and the need to conserve.

33151 - 

GUYS

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red, you gotta talk to a proffesional

44526 - 

Survivalism wherever I go.

33151 - 

what is it blue

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Anyways bye everyone, I'm going to console myself by listening to songs by wonderful singers I will never get the chance to romance, let alone meet

44019 - 

bye coralll

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