Also he's the same age as my youngest cousin

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im black, old blue

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I don't want to look incompetent.

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now im cyan?

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Did you get all of that cyan?

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lol its lagging'

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How do I get over a crush...

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If I can, I avoid situations that require more practical skills.

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Me asking that at my big age lmao

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yes i think

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I avoid group discussions in favour of 1-on-1 interactions.

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Okay cool, well that's pretty much it

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Intimacy, closeness.

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But I think I just copy off others. I'm not sure if I have any real identity.

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It's depressing.

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I don't want to be a co-dependent.

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i see coral. so youe were saying into singers? (correct me if i messed up)

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Just need to find someone with a much better singing voice I guess? But that's so shallow

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you can't just get over a crush, are there things that just makes you think "ick" or "ew"

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Yes, I'm attracted to someone's voice (and personality) more than anything else tbh

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about him

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No one cares, as usual.

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Maybe that he's five years younger than me

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You'd rather talk about crushes, I'd rather talk about CPTSD and intense, depressing things.

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coral, im a sucker for good voices too loll

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You can talk about whatever red

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We in this together then cyan

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Whenever I'm called stupid, I kinda just freeze. I enter a fight or flight state.

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havent met any of them yet coaralll

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red, say anything at this point we will and listen to it even though we are talking to somebody else or just doing nothing

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You will cyan

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On the one hand, I wanna tear the other person apart. On the other, I try to remain calm in order to look less dumb.

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Thanks.

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Honestly I've crushed hard on people based on their voices before and it's never ended well

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I'm kinda just frozen in life now, going with the flow with no consistent ambition.

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I know it's because of my past.

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im gonna go to therapy for the first time in some days loll

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I have some deep traumas that will probably never go away.

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My whole personality was formed off wanting to not look stupid. Needing to not look stupid.

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One dude was so my type, even looks which I usually don't care about it, but he was also seven years older and was ruining his voice by smoking!!!

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