ess crap

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i cannot eat beacuse i feel paranoid people poison me -ludo

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okay yellow stfu

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and green i'm so sorry you have to deal with that

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I used to fear that. Its anxiety.

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for me it is paranoid delusion -ludo

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i'm so sorry

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im js delusional

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beacuse of schizophrenia -ludo

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You have to accept that youre gonna die one day. You have to confront it.

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yea i know i tried to suicide myself even -ludo

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Maybe im paranoid then. I used to think thst when i was little

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i'm so sorry green

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and that sucks yellow im sorry

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i can only eat at night if i cook the food and nobody sees it -ludo

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hi -boom

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from july i lost 7 kg i hate it -ludo

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hi boom

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i

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Dont do that. Youll just get put in some shitty 3_day hold that is basically like jail

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i try not to but im so paranoid -ludo

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and if you intend a hospital i have already been -ludo

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im dying my hair w expo marker rn

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Im really sorry. Do you take meds?

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Yes i do -ludo

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yes, mental hospital

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ok so. i like 2 people. one of them i know irl. the other is online. i feel like im poly but it just doesnt feel right. i dont wanna choose who to date but i feel like i need to.. -boom

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in my country there is no mental hospital just normal hospital with psichiatrical division -ludo

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Thats pretty much how it is now in the U.S too

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i'm dying my hair rn

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i have to take meds but sometimes i dont beacuse i get scared my doctor poisons me -ludo

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you are in the usa? -ludo

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yes

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i wanna go there one day -ludo

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I dont take my meds bc i think they are going to kill me so i know whatvyou mean

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no u don't trust me

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my meds help but of recentely i have been getting worse so i am scared to take them -ludo

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and i cannot talk with my family beacuse i think they hurt me -ludo

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Meds can be intimidating. Maybe its the loss of control you fear

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and i cant ask for help i feel so stuck -ludo

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