Now it just tells me to die

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I have so many daydreams about it

38241 - 

You don't die on the voices terms. You die when your body wears out

36213 - 

Ohh, so u created it to be a friend & now it's not?

38237 - 

I'm scared, what if I fail and they all hate me

38241 - 

Yes blue

38241 - 

focus in finding reasons to keep going and ignore the reasons to end it

38251 - 

No real person is going to hate you for failing anything

36213 - 

people fail at things every day and learn from it

36213 - 

But if I fail in killing myself, they will hate me

38241 - 

I feel like even when people do dislike you for your failures, it doesn't matter much, because we can learn to persist through difficulties

38237 - 

Don't try it to begin with, then nothing to fail

36213 - 

the dysphoria's hittin' hard motherfuckers

37724 - 

Hmm, may I say something odd, yellow?

38237 - 

i want people to think of me as a dude

37724 - 

yeah blue

38241 - 

Ah umm, actually I have a question first. You said you created the voice, correct? So you feel it's something you conjured entirely?

38237 - 

They think I'm doing this for attention, no no I really want to die I cant keep on living they hate me no non ono no

38241 - 

Yes blue

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lmao

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okay

37724 - 

I made it up

38241 - 

you know it's not real yet you let it affect you

38251 - 

'oh no no no no no ohno' 💀

37724 - 

I'll try 2 give my perspective on that as best I can, then

38237 - 

It is in my head

38241 - 

It screams

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good for you

37724 - 

I can't stop thinking, my head starts spinning if I close my eyes

38241 - 

I feel like most feelings are prefaced by thoughts, & while sometimes we allow our thoughts to be overpowering, our minds remain ours

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🎻🎻

37724 - 

That is to say, acknowledging that your thoughts are causing you some problems & choosing not to ignore them but think through them may be beneficial

38237 - 

🎻🎻🎻🎻🎻🎻🎻

37724 - 

Not entertaining them, but considering why you feel that way & opting to replace them with better things.

38237 - 

🎻

37724 - 

I'm so sorry for bothering you all, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I'll leave, goodbye

38241 - 

You don't have to leave

38237 - 

I wonder if earphones with loud music would drown out the voices

36213 - 

i mean, music usually works for a lot of people

38251 - 

Maybe my mind works differently, but I don't think drowning them out will make them go away.

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