Like, sure mom. Stay delusional I guess whatever

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if i still believed in god i'd beg him to kill me but even that he's too incompetent to give me

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i jusy pretend im somewhere far away i never wanna abused by anyone else again but at the rate im at im doomed

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no one ever listens

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It's not like she caused my panic attacks when I was younger or anything

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Or is the reason I used dissociation as a coping mechanism

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I empathize with people so much that I lose my own self.

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No. Shes the picture fucking perfect mom -_-

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I now believe my own pain is nothing compared to others.

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And not a damn person knows what shes done

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I dont even think my brother knows how she treats me. Or if he does, he ignores it

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And I dont blame him

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Its really not his fault

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Its not selfish to help yourself then help others

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thats what ive been telling myself

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I wish to lessen the burden from this world by dying.

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I just wish I grew up normal. With a mom that didnt get into fights with me

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Or make me cry

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Or make me so completely detatch from my mind I form separate identities

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would they really care if they loose me..? like.. they have four other kids so why care about me..

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I wish upon a star, to make me die.

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I hate her

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I hate her so much

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mom is no better i don’t know how to express my emotions which i guess just makes it easy to hurl whatever they want at me

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Everything will be okay then.

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But not all the time :(

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I don’t deserve people’s appreciation i dont deserve anything i really own nothing but idk me

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And its been so hard lately navigating my own mind and trying to figure things out

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I cant afford a therapist so I'm basically doing this all with no help

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me and my boyfriend just got into a bad arguement and i lowkey wanna kms

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im still thinking hard about what i really want

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truly

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And im so fucking tired this shit is hard

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