I'll just, conveniently forget

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i don't even want to do this

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Which is fun -_-

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i don't want to do any of this i wish i could kill myself or something would just happen to me

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so i don't have to try so hard anymore\

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ditto, blue.

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But I have it planned out for tomorrow, so yeah.

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When things get really hard i find myself hoping someone will come out of nowhere and save me its so stupid but its yet to happen

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like. all i want from these people is some fucking support because i can't talk to anyone

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and what do i get

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passive aggressive comments

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And I know for a fact my mom wouldnt believe me if I told her because shes apparently "never done wrong to me in my life"

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Which is utter bullshit

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i don't want to do it anymore

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any of it

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Do you want to talk about it?

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Like, sure mom. Stay delusional I guess whatever

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if i still believed in god i'd beg him to kill me but even that he's too incompetent to give me

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i jusy pretend im somewhere far away i never wanna abused by anyone else again but at the rate im at im doomed

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no one ever listens

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It's not like she caused my panic attacks when I was younger or anything

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Or is the reason I used dissociation as a coping mechanism

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I empathize with people so much that I lose my own self.

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No. Shes the picture fucking perfect mom -_-

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I now believe my own pain is nothing compared to others.

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And not a damn person knows what shes done

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I dont even think my brother knows how she treats me. Or if he does, he ignores it

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And I dont blame him

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Its really not his fault

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Its not selfish to help yourself then help others

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thats what ive been telling myself

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I wish to lessen the burden from this world by dying.

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I just wish I grew up normal. With a mom that didnt get into fights with me

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Or make me cry

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