ive tried, tried slitting mg wrists, overdosing on sleeping pills feels like a cruel joke

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i cant bring myself to even eat

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You can take a flight or train or bus.

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Same, yellow.

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10hr by bus, saving up the money

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and when i tried explaining to my dad all he said was "well if you don't do the other job i guess you're stuck with the dead end one"

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I've also tried overdosing and slitting.

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Zamn

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and i couldn't take it anymore so i snapped like. "do you think that's what i need to hear right now? i'm working as hard as i can"

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and it's not that big a deal but i'm still so mad that i didn't eat dinner with him

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I've been trying to navigate figuring out my DID but it's really fucking difficult when the thing you are trying to discover is being actively hidden by your brain

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i sent her a letter, wondering when it will arrive

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But I have to slit it more deeper this time.

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like. how could you see me working so hard and say that to me

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I believe I can do it.

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I'll just, conveniently forget

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i don't even want to do this

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Which is fun -_-

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i don't want to do any of this i wish i could kill myself or something would just happen to me

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so i don't have to try so hard anymore\

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ditto, blue.

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But I have it planned out for tomorrow, so yeah.

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When things get really hard i find myself hoping someone will come out of nowhere and save me its so stupid but its yet to happen

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like. all i want from these people is some fucking support because i can't talk to anyone

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and what do i get

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passive aggressive comments

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And I know for a fact my mom wouldnt believe me if I told her because shes apparently "never done wrong to me in my life"

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Which is utter bullshit

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i don't want to do it anymore

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any of it

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Do you want to talk about it?

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Like, sure mom. Stay delusional I guess whatever

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if i still believed in god i'd beg him to kill me but even that he's too incompetent to give me

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i jusy pretend im somewhere far away i never wanna abused by anyone else again but at the rate im at im doomed

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no one ever listens

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