i dont mean to be blunt and insensitive but he's using you for his benefit

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I won't kill myself though, so all I can do is envy others

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And I'm fucking depressed.

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oh

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Envy those who are better than me. The ones who never suffered from a lack of intelligence

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i know but there were sometimes these rare moments where he cared and even that's just enough

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They can play a mental game at a level that I can't

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why is racism peek humor in my generation, i dont want to be friends with anybody tbh

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i mean i've known him for five years

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i caan't just erase all of that

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but those moments were rare

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I can't stand being incapable of playing the mental game in life

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and why people here are harrassing others instead of venting?

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huh

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who

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where

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what

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?

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when

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orieyfwego idk idk idk if he replies then who knows what happens

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I know that your going through a lot and i dont even know how you look like but just do what makes you feel happy in that relationsup

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anyways

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oh

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you don't have to be so nice to me

37644 - 

Ignore me because I'm an idiot

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i wanna be nice

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i don't think you like me that much

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you really don't need to be nice

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its been too long since ive been talking nice on here

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I'm slowly rotting away inside because I can't find a reason to tend to my own needs

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or idk

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how have you been though

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Why should I care for myself when I'm so pathetic?

33151 - 

is everything okay?

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Why should I bother?

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why would i me not nice to you when i dont know what ur going through

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I know I'll be disappointed if I have expectations

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I never meet my expectations. My intentions mean nothing

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yeah everythings ok, just a ton of schoolwork not really burnt out just tired

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I'm a selfish, obnoxious, annoying, idiotic weakling

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