i fuckign dread the idea that someone could be into me romantically

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im fucking terrified that it turns out a friend is only talking to me to date me or hook up or something

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any time anyone is a bit too friendly too quickly i feel so much fucking anxiety i just want to have friends without the pre-concieved idea that maybe we will get together

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i want to be able to be open and vulnerable and be kind to people without them thinking im secretly massively crushing on them when i just want to be me

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without them feigning friendship for so many fucking years just to burn it down and get mad when i say no or enter a relationship out of aforementioned pressure

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sorry for the ranting if anyones actually reading feels nice to just get this off my chest

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just to not feel as alone as ive been :)

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My sisters tell me the meanest of things and then expect me to go out on a trip with them

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hi

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my grandpa died i dont know how to cope

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sad

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I've been on the social housing waiting list for over two years and I feel like I'll never get a place

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The thing about smut is that people will get really creative...didn't read it but I saw one that had laxatives as a plot point???

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Everyone is free to have their own kinks but scat fetish is kinda...

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finding myself get jealous of a new person in my friend group. she's so much more confident and put-together than i'll ever be and i hate that i'll never be half of what she is

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i find that distancing myself is better than making the others put up with my childish bullshit.

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Hey

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There?

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How to talk

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What's happening

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hello

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how is everyone

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hi gang

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im alright

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"go to therapy! get help! you will feel so much better!!!" so much better my ass bro. i've been in and out of therapy since i was like 2 and i have never seen any improvements on it ever

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damn we got a therapy hater before gta vi

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i hate how society indoctrinates the mentally ill into wasting ungodly amouts of money to be prisoners of institutions that don't give a shit about you and just want your money

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i have seen it first hand. it does not work for anything beyond "havíng a bad day uwu omg im so depressed"

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works for me

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ig its different for everyone

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I have a family member goes to therapy, it doesn't work for him either

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those who actually suffer from chronic mental problems like us almost never get anything out of it, and even get worse under the hands of therapists

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lmao what makes you think i dont have a chronic mental problem

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and don't even get me STARTED on institutions and ERs

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I have never amounted to anything so far in life, the only good thing so far that I didn't degenerate enough to substance addiction and homelessness. Though I might end up being homeless soon

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if i wanted to talk about my feelings to somebody, instead of paying ungodly amounts of money for someone to go "damn that sucks", i'd just get a house plant or something

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at least the house plant wont lock me up for experiencing "wrong" emotions

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God, if you're real somewhere up there. Just kill me already

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and i am just so tired, because i tell people "i have been to so many experts and none of them have helped me ever" and they either don't believe me or delude themselves into thinking i'm just

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"unlucky". no. fool me once, shame on me, fool me continuously for 16+ years, shame on YOU

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