and when i finally broke it off and begged to just go back to a friendship they lied and said sure but they were only staying around in the hopes id want to go back together

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liek they thought the break upwas a phase that id get over and when they realized i didnt want to go back to a relationship they stopped caring for me

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id never felt so abandoned and lonely in the moment i just felt like a fucking toy to them to get a quick satisfaction

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im so sorry to interrupt but is your name hailey?

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me? no i dont know a hailey

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im not a hailey *

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oh okay sorry your situation seems so similar to one of my friends

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ah i guess it makes sense

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but uh yeah back to what i was saying just feel a bit used and after i left that relationship/friendship i never felt so alone

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these past couple months ive been trying to rebuild new friendships and reignate old ones but its been hard and sometimes i feel lonely

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especially sense i had lost contact with so many of my closer and older friends because of that stuff

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im pretty sure i may be aro/ace and i only ever entered those relationships out of the pressure

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the fear that i had to be in it because it was a close friend that i felt comfy and open with

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honestly because of those experience

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i fuckign dread the idea that someone could be into me romantically

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im fucking terrified that it turns out a friend is only talking to me to date me or hook up or something

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any time anyone is a bit too friendly too quickly i feel so much fucking anxiety i just want to have friends without the pre-concieved idea that maybe we will get together

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i want to be able to be open and vulnerable and be kind to people without them thinking im secretly massively crushing on them when i just want to be me

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without them feigning friendship for so many fucking years just to burn it down and get mad when i say no or enter a relationship out of aforementioned pressure

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sorry for the ranting if anyones actually reading feels nice to just get this off my chest

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just to not feel as alone as ive been :)

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My sisters tell me the meanest of things and then expect me to go out on a trip with them

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hi

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my grandpa died i dont know how to cope

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sad

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I've been on the social housing waiting list for over two years and I feel like I'll never get a place

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The thing about smut is that people will get really creative...didn't read it but I saw one that had laxatives as a plot point???

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Everyone is free to have their own kinks but scat fetish is kinda...

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finding myself get jealous of a new person in my friend group. she's so much more confident and put-together than i'll ever be and i hate that i'll never be half of what she is

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i find that distancing myself is better than making the others put up with my childish bullshit.

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Hey

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There?

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How to talk

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What's happening

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hello

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how is everyone

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hi gang

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im alright

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"go to therapy! get help! you will feel so much better!!!" so much better my ass bro. i've been in and out of therapy since i was like 2 and i have never seen any improvements on it ever

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damn we got a therapy hater before gta vi

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