you building smth?

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Writing something

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you re writing a book?

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Yes, several

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you must be smart. whats all about?

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Not particularly. It's too complicated to explain here

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Fiction, superheroes, etc.

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its ok try me. but may be in short

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No, I can't condense it enough to make sense. It's a me problem, haha

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Superheroes is all you get to know, sorry

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i understand. so you have having problem finishing it on time?

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Nobody's expecting me to publish or anything, all the pressure's from myself solely

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isnt that a good thing? self moderating? or not?

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I think it's a good thing

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I guess it depends on who you are, though

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It's not like it's my main source of income, so

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true, i m not very smart at self moderation. i screw up and waste things so much

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I'm probably the same way, if I were to be honest. Never get much done

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I think it's a skill few people have

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though it feels very convincing at the beginning...

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yes right, lucky those few people

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but they may have other problems that we dont

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i ll just think it that way and find peace

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its toxic to have such thought.. sounds a bit selfishly sadistic.. others got problems that i dont have...

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but it always self first.. much better if help or service each other to solve the problems

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Everyone else around me gets to be emotional and talk about how they feel but when i try to i feel like they shut me out and continue talking about themselves and i feel selfish 😀

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anybody still there?

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oh cyan that can be two reasons

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atleast from what i experienced

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What reasons

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I’m always so emotional, i hate it, it only makes others upset. I feel so much guilt I keep thinking about hurting myself but ik that’d only make them more upset so im trying not to.

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more people are growing selfish. or you are.

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The dude i started talking too is now leaving me on delivered for hours on end.. He says hes just busy but his account says active..Maybe im overthinking..

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I wish my emotions weren’t always so strong. I get upset all the time and i hate it.

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but the first reason seems likely to have effect even if the second doesnt exist

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Hm

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I live in fiction and fiction only. I make perceptions of myself and rely on fake characters and universes to cope with my issues.

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nobody respects my thoughts. so i stopped telling it to anyone. i behave disrespectful to those who disrespect my thoughts

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idk i feel like i dont have a right to talk about things that happened, my ex broke up w me in july and im still feeling hurt about it but my friend who also broke up w his gf is compellty fine and -

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Moved on,so i feel like i shouldnt feel like this

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