i feel like if you're still willing to let something decide for you you still have hope

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maybe not in a traditional way

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but its like how you look for signs to not do it

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it means you want to look for a reason not to do it

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i disagree for a few reasons

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one being, i dont even look when i cross the busiest street in town rofl i dont even care anymore

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second being, i only am willing to let something else decide my fate because i dont want to make the decision myself

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my decisions have hurt enough people, so i want my death to be blamed on fate, not myself

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which still means you dont feel strongly enough about it

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and what if fate decides thar you'll live another 50 years?

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then i go against fate and do it anyway

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because i surely cant endure another 50 years of this torture

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then you're the one taking the decision there

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even 50 months would be too much

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i mean same

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50 weeks, even

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i feel like leaving everything up to fate is really the worst thing you can do

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id be lucky to be able to last another month

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as someone who's thrown away their teenage years with that mindset, it really affects you later

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maybe i should just do some half and half russian roulette

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lmfao

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Am I oblivious. Everyone around us says my best friend is in love with me. Why can i not see it

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i know it's not something where you just wake up and feel better

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if fate decides i live, i try again the next day

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and so on and so forth

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until fate decides that i live no more

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try looking for a small reason thar makes you glad you're here every dat

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hi

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ive been trying that for years now

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im unable to come up with anything

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it sounds so small but it can do its thing

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hi purple

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my family is on the brink of disowning me, my friends have all left, the one person that cared for me has turned to the dark side

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is x red here?

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you said there was one person you're unsure about?

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yeah, and theyre... a questionable last hope

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because i think they might be getting tired of me too

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just like everyone else did

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try holding on to that, and try to make the best out of it

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companionship is one of the most important things one can have, and everyone deserves it

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