because it is genuinely horrible

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mind, what is happening? what diagnosis?

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i have alot of intrusive thouts yhat make me feel absolutely horrible and terrified

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coral we are all mentally unstable strangers we wont judge why would we judge -mind

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i wont judge

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i get back home from school at 12:15 and only study at around 1:30 which to me is alot - sophie

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i spend all my time researching this topic, idolising the two guys that were involved, etc

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huh?! Well, same here but I'm the dumb in the class....wel of my friends

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i dont know whats wrong with me

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nobody will judge don't woryyy

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nothing is wrong with you coral -mind

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and i feel so scared that im actually going to do what the two guys did

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involved in what coral

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what did they do

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coral, is it tcc? if you dont mind telling of course everyone has boundaries - sophie

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im in another country so hopefully it would be a lot harder

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what is tcc??

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true cr1m3 community - sophie

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woah

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u dont sound like someone that would commit murder

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as someone who had the most rephrensible types of intrusive thoughts, the way I got better with dealing with them is to just go with the uncertainty they bring. I would just say, maybe, instead of no

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its an actual crime case yes

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tha fcat that ur researching about it

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And I learned, gradually, to live with these thoughts

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i dont believe interest will always lead to idolisation - sophie

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for some reason i idolise these guys and i dont even know why

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i idolise what they did

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and i hate myself for it

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But rn i cant live with them

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i feel i like exactly what you’re talking about coral, and down to the case but i teally dont wanna say out of respect - sophie

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yeh bcuz I'm interested in serial killers but nah never do what they did

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I learned to notice that yeah, I'm uncertain if I'm x,y or z, but my actions will tell

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you can say it

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I feel like I get it all wrong sayig what I'm saying lmao

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intrusive thoughts don't form who you are. The idea that you are terrified of your own intrusive thoughts shows that you will never act upon them, which is a good sign. keep it up.

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if yous ay it and its right tbh it would be easier for me to say it

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say*

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i cant stop thinking about all the stupid things ive ever done

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c0lumb1ne - sophie

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ots all like on repeat

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