My parents are fighting

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ah, goodluck with that. i was shit at math, half the reason i dropped out of college.

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with this girl, i have been in this situatuion before and last time i shut down conversation

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im sorry to hear that blue

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I dont think i have felt this bad

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felt a lot better not talking to her, only having a streak

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Like ever

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but then she messages me again...

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i just keep gaining weight

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literally so bad theyre annoying I cant even sleep

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i feel completely and utterly disgusting

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i also met someone at a party

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i just wish i was skinny

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last saturday

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but im not sure if i like them or not

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ive felt that way too red. idk if u have an eating disorder but i struggle with anorexia.

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i know they like me, and all my friends are kind of pushing me to get with them

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but i just dont feel it

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what makes it worse is the fcat that i do theatre in hs and i know that i will not get any of the good roles if im not skinny

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ive not lost enough, if any, weight to be medically classified as anorexic though, so its just perpetual starving

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Which i am not

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maybe because we dont share any classes ot anything

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They're shameful and low people

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You're gorgeous trust me

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i was for a bit when i started restricting but then i started over eatinbg and i havenr stopped

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my parents have guns in our house, but i could never deal with the guilt of leaving a mess for my parents to find. i dont want to put them through that.

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i just feel so incredibly guilty all the time

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i cant stop feeling so guilty

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yeah, same red. the same thing happens with me. ive had binge eating and anorexia, so its a constant battle.

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im not sure its a full blown eating disorder but i want it to stop

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bit im afraid that if i stop

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ill gain more weight

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I'm trying to gain weight opposite of yall srry to hear that

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i know what thats like. the issue for me is i literally know that i lost weight eating more and consistently weight training, but im so comforted by the feeling of starving i cant stop.

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Thing is all i would be stopping is the near constant guilt and shit ciz i dont even starve or skip meals anymore

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yeah, im really inconsistent with it, but when i feel hungry i wont eat as long as i physically can.

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Try eating low calory food and quit starving ik its comforting but its veryyy badd

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i know it is, but idk how much longer im gonna be around anyways, so im not sure if it really matters.

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yeah i try to do that but then i feel so bad i just ear anyway

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Same

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